Boredom!

Am actually so bored that i dont even feel like listening to any music.. also because... i agree with DBC's ( or his character's ) view point that all this 'good' music takes to to another world for sometime and then ..'wham!'.. u are back to reality! then reality sucks more than ever!! very very aptly put, i must say!


And i dont have much to sulk abt in my blog too..! So lemme try and justify all that angry lashing out in the previous blog !
It was a whole lot of things... but basically a fight at work!! yes..'Fight'!! I screamed and yelled my heart out at workplace for the probably the first time in my eight years of working life! And .. ppl might think that its kind of 'usual' ... but its not everyday that you use the word 'fuck' in a meeting room!! (eeeeks!!.. just cant get that out of my head!) But all the shouting and screaming has only helped to a level where the Moron 1 and the 'Bully' lady have started to behave a lil pleasantly! ( a teeny weeny lil bit pleasant!) 'Psychos' both of them..( wonder what they would be calling me...??!! 'Super-psycho' or something!)

However, all this has led me to believe that its time i stop fooling myself and start finding some thing i am actually capable of doing.. and which pays and which is interesting...!!
On second thoughts......tch!.. nope.. dont think theres any such job on this planet yet!!

Am dead bored and this whole technical bling bling just makes my mind go numb!! and my belief that all techies are 'geeks' just becomes stronger!

I think i was okay with just being a 'teacher' in a primary school was much more 'stimulating' than this bull shit i write every day and get kicked for it! Sadly, teaching is just rewarding in a very non-materialistic way! Esp. when u get used to seeing a certain amount of money in your bank account every month... and not thinking before buying your favorite brand of perfume even if its grossly expensive!! ( hmm.. i kind of sound very shallow and stuff.. but thats like 'the reality' at present!) But then ofcourse... there are certainly more joys to life than perfume and stuff that money can buy ever..! 'Mastercard' has very successfully advertised a few already! But teaching gives u a different high altogether.
Mannnn..Life has changed so much... just thinking about my earlier routine makes me feel like i have transformed big time...the 'earlier routine' was when i was a teacher and it was something like:

• wake up real early..
• religiously cook breakfast
• pray ( like ..'real praying'.. from-the-heart 'mantras-shlokas' and the worx..!)
• reach on time always
• work whole heartedly..( like put your heart and soul int smallest tasks!)
• come back on time ..always
• cook some lunch
• afternoon nap (..!!!??!!)
• evening walk
• chat with folks/family
• cook dinner
• sleep (on time...!)

v/s

• wake up late... sometimes as late as after the office hours begin..
• consequently.. no time to cook
• consequently... late to the office
• shamming at work... more smoke breaks than anything else!
• consequently.. work late
• consequently..reach home late ...
• sleep even later...

* not to forget the 'drinking' escapades!!

Cant help but notice all the good things ( read..praying, walking, being punctual) replaced by all the bad things (read shamming, smoking, lying, drinking...!!)

SIGH!!

From bored to depressed!!

till the next time!