'hummm'

Went home this tuesday... MY home..! Or is it really my home anymore..dunno..!
After ages, all four of us sat for dinner.. and it was so nice.. mom-cooked food and everything! its so strange that things like having dinner with ur family can seem such a big deal. In fact everything that u take for granted ..once it ceases to happen. .. seems a 'big deal' and u crave and crave for it ..! Wish there was a 'preview' mode for everything that was going to happen in life...!

Before this post comes in the category of a 'psychic-retard' blog! lemme deviate...

Was at TC day again yesterday.. however was not the routine types... yesterday was basically a very fucked up day... i cud sense that when the day started with me setting out to make a nice 'half-fry' sunny-side-up kinda egg..and ended up maked tasteless scrambled eggs... i mean, it was a complete insult to the cook inside me..! So from 7 in the morning started the day in which nothing was supposed to happen the way it usually does.

So, initially had no plans to go to TC.. but then Neo and me cud not think beyond booze..! So me and neo decided that we shall go to TC! This time went with Ankur..(note...the first instance of digression from routine..!) he had to meet his friends there. went there in an auto (second instance..!) and fought for 'ciggies' on the way..(of all the things..mannnn.. how shallow have i become *sigh*..( i can picturize Neo nodding his head in agreement when he is reading this!)
We reach TC.. Neo stomps off to buy ciggies for me from a place thats far far away (i have managed to provoke Neo-the-high-voltage!). Meanwhile.. the bouncers check Ankur's and my bag..yes..MY bag too! ( third digression!!.. cannot be a coincidence for sure.. and that peturbs me !) me and Ankur (i call him bob..so ankur wil be referred to as bob from now on.!) so.. me and bob are welcomed by his frnds ( Roj and a firang 'keeith/kear??! am not sure abt his name so he will be reffered to as 'firang') bob is gud pals with both so.. after a formality for introduction.. bob and roj and the firang..chat up.. ( bob visibily uncomfortable.. trying not to neglect me!...although i was okay with being neglected!) i dont make any effort to chat up with the two new aquantainces.. and they also seem pretty okay with me being a silent observer... which is very relaxing.. wasnt in any mood for a small talk. All this while..Neo still hunting for my ciggarettes..( which definitely made me a lil uncomfortable.. am not used to throwing tantrums!) Neo walks in after almost half an hour.. visibily cursing me and not in a good mood..! He is even more 'not-in-a-mood-for-small-talk' mood!So although sitting at the same table.. me and neo start a conversation.. the other 2 are busy cracking their own jokes..! bob ...trying to divide his time between the 2 groups.. sorry bob.. my bad luck just rubs on to ppl arnd me! The music is kinda new to me.. and the electricity kept going off (nothing surprises me anymore!) Amongst all this i manage to get drunk.. this time only 3 pints swack me up! and just when i was beginning to 'get into the groove' neo shouts at me to leave...! we have to go by auto so we leave early at 11!!

Today is the day that follows.. phew...!hangover!! manage to drag myself out the bed at 6:30..cannot.. 6:45..cannot...7.. i tell myself.. 'get up u lazy fucker.. or go in this sickening heat in an auto..!'... the thought of the sun happily devouring my skin..makes me sit upright...

Am in the ofc..lethargic.. and a lil disoriented! Dont think am going to TC for another month or so..!