15/Sept/2005
Its 10:30 pm and I sit in the balcony for a well deserving smoke. Well deserving because I am trying to cut down and it feels good if u are able to keep the promise you make to yourself and also because its been a tiring day. Nice cool breeze.. its almost chilly.. but it feels nice. The surroundings are very neat .. but very boring. Was hoping to find some interesting ppl around.. but seems like there are none ..atleast none in the balconies that I can see. Most of them inside, watching their ‘Flatron’ 29 inches television. Can hear a lady talk to her children…. I think she has no idea about her volume…. She is almost disturbing the serenity of the place.. however.. it feels nice to hear someone speak Hindi.. most of the voices that I hear during the day are either kannada or a a very kannada accented English. A fat lady comes to the balcony bang opposite mine… my smoke catches her attention and she is almost offended by it and she goes in, almost immediately. Thank you aunty!… I also dint especially like you !. But then soon… a fatter uncle enters and shamelessly stares into my face…and goes on staring… hello..??!! i feel like showing him my middle finger.. but have to restrain..after all its my neighborhood. All this kind of spoils the whole cool breeze scene and I want to just finish my smoke and get inside.
Am tired out of choice…. Unpacked like crazy all day…. Was kind of stretching my limits. just to avoid the feeling of loneliness. Dint even cook or eat food. Just had a pack of maggi .. my good ol’ maggi ! But physical work is very satisfying and makes you tired… tired enough so that you can sleep soundly.. a rarity these days.
The house is good.. kind of a dream house…also the society it is in… very organized and nice maintained.. swimming pool, gym etc. Needless to say, lot of rich bastards around in this place. Even has its own departmental store.. the prices are of course as per the rich bastards (bought an ordinary plastic dustbin for 130 bucks… bloody assholes!) Will be a lil difficult to survive like this … especially if I do not find a job soon!! Feeling a lil scared now.. more than 10 days since I have submitted my resume to all the hot companies and not even a single call… so much for the ‘hub of IT’ and ‘flood of jobs’. Bull shit!
The point to be noted is also that the date is significant because I joined NIIT 2 years on the same date completely convinced that ‘this is it!’ But that’s not very surprising .. there have been so many other ‘this is its’ which are not really ‘it’!!
Before I plunge into my depression.. I think I should go to sleep!
Till next time!
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