I hate ppl who say 'good.. u are moving on'!! with a smile! What the flig they know abt how
good is moving on?? How many times has anybody i know has 'moved on'??? You know ppl, its not good to 'move on' when thats all you have been doing since you were 3
yrs old. From one school to another.. from one locality to another.. from one set of frnds
to another... from a type of culture to another. It was all a very emotional experience and
more of a trauma for me.. new teachers..new schools and the way you are evaluated about
everything u do. Teased endlessly by the new school mates.. scolded by your teacher for
being dumb and how it must be all because your 'base was not strong'! They almost made my parents look bad! And life can really be screwed if u are bad at mathematics! Till the time you are done convincing the ppl around you that u are not all that bad.. u 'move on'!!!
After i grew up, it was with jobs... one organization to another.. u slog ur ass off..
establish yourself and just when u are about to get a promotion or anything close to it...
you 'move on'!! Most of it has been because of dad's consistent transfers..but lately its
all because of my 'super' decision-making abilities...!! no one can beat me at this I am so
super sure!! But its not a nice feeling to have worked for almost more than 8 years and not get a promotion.. al because you were too busy 'moving on'!!
It actually sucks so much that all my motivation to excel at my 'job' goes for a toss!!
But seriously how much can an individual take??... i started with earning 1500 bucks teaching a bunch of village blokes in a stuffy room without a fan at 46 degrees celcuis! to being a faculty at computer institutes..to being a primary class teacher ( teaching 7 yr olds how to draw circles using the paintbrush tool and fill 'em up with color!!! wow.. how intellectually stimulating!! yeah yeah .. i know all that about respecting ur work and the crap around it!!) ..to working in a call centre as a tech support.. pretending to be american with the fake american accent all of a sudden... to working as a cabin crew ( learnt the most about 'faking it' in this industry. Now, i can easily tell one smile from another. Did u know..the crew also have a smile which actually means.. 'ohh ..plzz shut the f**k up'). And finally.... i sit back and relax and decide how about taking up some writing for a living. And this is what i turned out to be doing.. explaining a bunch of highly technical system administrators how to learn about this even more technical system that has been introduced..( ..how the fuck am i supposed to know about it..??) but then thats your job.. to come out with all sorts of crap to make the client believe that even if we dont know about your technology we can still fool you by writing all sorts of crap about it!! ( i know the word 'crap' was used more than it was necessary... but thats how i feel about the things around me now..'crappy'!!.. its not even PMS time as yet...!! oh crap!!
So much for a blog after a month! but i cannot really come up with real nice blogs about things that are nice and how we should appreciate those things...because i think thats even more 'crap'!!
Til next time...!
PS: i guess all the weirdos out there can understand where the frustration is coming frm :-!
2 comments:
Hey .. I understand where you are coming from .. I mean the frustration. Moving on - yeah, its not that easy - I can understand. Hope you have settled down in B'lore and taking each day as it comes. Have you made any friends there? How are the people? Did you go for a swim in your attached Swimming Pool???!! Tell me about it when you get to see this blog... and yeah, please do keep writing your blogs, that way I will know whats happeneing. And I am sure, you will have better things to write about - unless you want to use the BLogs to only vent your frustrations!
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